GOD IS HERE! — Your life is worth living. Let Him carry your burdens.

Part of my daily prayers the past few years has been asking God to intervene in the lives of anyone considering suicide, no matter where they are in the world. It doesn’t matter that I don’t know them, I simply want God to touch their hearts with comfort and let them know that the overwhelming loneliness, pain, and hurt driving them to suicide does not have to be their burden to carry. I pray God will remind them that HE IS HERE. Present every minute. Even, and I dare say, especially, when life is at its absolute darkest.

The suicide of Pastor Rick Warren’s son on Friday is painful beyond words for those who loved him – and especially for those who witnessed his daily struggle with mental illness. While my prayers can’t save him, I’m recommitting to praying daily that God will intervene in the lives of others who can still be saved.

Father, please find the one person today who is in the depth of despair and can see no other way out but to take his/her life. You are the ONLY one who can bring hope where there is none, joy in the face of sadness and peace in the midst of turmoil. Please bring them all to that person so that he/she may see that all things are possible with You – even facing, fighting and conquering the demons.

Father, please let this person know the words of Your Son in John 10:10: I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. Lord, let this person see and accept the invitation for this richer life that You are bringing to him/her today. You sent Your Son to die on that cross because You love us so much that You don’t want any of us to perish. You want that we should all have abundant life here while we keep our eyes focused on You and the eternal life that can only be found through the grace of Your Son Jesus. Prepare this person’s heart that it may be open to accepting Your intervention and let his/her survival be a living testimony to others who are facing the same.

Lastly, I pray for the Warren family. Father, may they take comfort in the many promises that You’ve made to Your children in the bible.

Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted.

Psalm 46:1-2 (and all) God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble.

Revelation 21:3-4 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God.  He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

For anyone who out there today thinking that suicide is the only answer, God IS listening. CRY OUT! He loves you more than you know and wants you to live. He has a calling for you. You can be a living testimony for others who are going through the same thing. Let Him use you. Tell Him you’re not strong enough. Let Him carry the burden. He’s here. Just talk to Him.

Psalm 147: 3 He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds.

Psalm 34:15The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, And His ears are open to their cry.

Psalm 34:17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, And delivers them out of all their troubles.

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

Psalm 34:19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the Lord delivers him out of them all.

God IS Here

There is a sweet anointing in the sanctuary
There is a stillness in the atmosphere
Oh come lay down the burdens you have carried
For in this sanctuary
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There is a sweet anointing in the sanctuary
There is a stillness in the atmosphere
Oh come lay down the burdens you have carried
For in this sanctuary
God is here
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He’s here to mend the broken heart
He’s here to heal your hurt
Oh thank you for keeping your angels around about us
Letting us know that you’re always with us
The scripture says low am with U̶̲̥̅̊ always
Even unto the end of the earth
God is right where you are
Whatever it is tonight
He’s here, he’s here to heal your life
If you need healing today
If you need deliverance today

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Oh come lay down the burdens you have carried
For in this sanctuary
God is here
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Faith or Fear

Definition of FEAR (noun)

1 a : an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger

b (1) : an instance of this emotion (2) : a state marked by this emotion

2: anxious concern

3: profound reverence and awe especially toward God

We recently wrapped up a summer series at church on the subject of faith. The study was an exposition of Hebrews 11. If you haven’t taken the time to really study that chapter, I’d highly recommend doing so.

As described in Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Faith is the foundation of our relationship with God. We have hope for/in a world that we’ve never personally experienced (heaven) and steadfast belief in the supreme creator whom we haven’t seen with human eyes.

In my time of prayer today I started thinking about faith and its enemy – FEAR (the human kind). It would be great if the only definition of fear we experience is the one noted in number 3 – the Godly fear.  Proverbs 1:7 and numerous other verses in the bible make it clear that we should fear the Lord.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction. (Proverbs 1:7)

The Lord takes pleasure in those who fear Him, In those who hope in His mercy. (Psalm 147:11)

Though a sinner does evil a hundred times, and his days are prolonged, yet I surely know that it will be well with those who fear God, who fear before Him. (Ecclesiastes 8:12)

Do not let your heart envy sinners, But be zealous for the fear of the Lord all the day; (Proverbs 23:17)

And Moses said to the people, “Do not fear; for God has come to test you, and that His fear may be before you, so that you may not sin.” (Exodus 20:20)

Unfortunately, the fear that I am writing about today is not reverence. It’s the fear that slowly erodes faith. You don’t think fear undermines and damages faith? How can it not when the very heart of faith requires us to fully trust in God? How can you fully trust in God who is all the things noted below AND more, yet still be afraid?

Jehovah: The one who possesses all authority. (Exodus 3:13-15)

Infinite: The one with no beginning, no end, and no limits. (Romans 11:33)

Omnipotent: The one who has limitless power. (Jeremiah 32:17, 18, 26 and 27)

Love: The one who cares so much for us that He sacrificed His ONLY Son for our eternal salvation. (1 John 4-7-10)

Jehovah-Jireh: The one who provides. (Genesis 22:9-14)

Omniscient: The one who knows all that existed before, what exists now and what will exist in the future. (Psalm 139:1-6)

Holy: The one who is absolutely untainted. (Revelation 48:11)

The questions are easy to ask, but not as easy to answer – at least for me. What answer can I possibly give that would make sense? I proclaim immovable faith in God, yet I am “anxiously concerned” everyday about matters as simple as daily provisions and trying to find another career. Through human eyes these issues seem insurmountable. I sit and I sweat thinking of all the ways that I will never succeed and of all that it means to leave a job that is secure (or as secure as any job can be in this economy) for something unknown. Even typing it out to share with you has my heart racing and my blood pressure rising.

Where is the faith in that fear? I’m scared of not having provisions, yet I serve Jehovah-Jireh. I’m scared of the unknown, yet I serve the one who is omniscient. Do you see something wrong with this picture? I have this image of God sitting there for the last several months shaking His head and patiently waiting for me to come to this conclusion. You can’t serve Jehovah and fear. It’s one or the other. Either I have faith in Him being the ONLY authority and the one who is THE provider and the one who loves me completely, or I don’t. For the past two years I’ve been on this journey to really know God and one thing that’s been made clear is that He doesn’t accept a double-mind. James 1:6-8 says “But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.”

I’d love to say that I don’t have days like today when I’m scared out of my wits about the future career and how that ties into my Godly purpose. Lying is a sin so I won’t say that. What I will say is that God, knowing my human weakness, prepared for the fact that I would have fear. In preparation for it, He has armed me with countless stories and verses in the bible to remind me of all the reasons why I shouldn’t fear. He’s done His part. Now it’s my job to meditate on those words before I start to allow fear takeover my faith. Remembering that James 1:6 says “But let him ask in faith, with no doubting…,” I will pray this simple prayer for me (and for anyone reading this and struggling with whatever your personal fear might be).

Heavenly Father, thank You for Your many attributes. Even if we had forever we could never capture everything that You are. Thank You God that You have all those magnificent attributes but still choose to associate with us who are lacking so much. We glorify Your holy name Lord because You deserve all the glory and praise. We know that without You there would truly be a lot to fear. But thank God we don’t have to experience that because we do have You. Thank You for Your saving grace Lord. Thank You for Your saving grace that not only promises us a future with You in eternity, but also promises to transform us here on earth. Lord, for those of us who are in need of a transformation from fear to faith, we pray with faith truly believing that You will make a change. Help us Lord daily to seek You and request from You a spirit of courage: the courage that can only come from knowing who holds our future, who held our past and who is holding our present.  Lord, we are sorry that we’ve been a people who are double-minded. What an insult it is to You to be so. Forgive us this sin Lord as You’ve forgiven us many others. Let us have a mind that stands firmly planted on the side of faith. One that knows that if we keep our hearts set on You, all the other things will follow. Help us Lord to be so focused on You and in glorifying You that our faith is strengthened daily so that it can eventually leave no room for fear. Remind us to trust in Matthew 6:33 “ But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” We pray all this in the holy name of Your Son Jesus. Amen.

As always, your thoughts are appreciated.

Main sources:



Names and Attributes of God by The Navigators


Secondary sources:

The Knowledge of the Holy by A.W. Tozer; 6

Names of God by Nathan Stone

My favorite lines from the song In Christ Alone:

No guilt of life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life’s first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

‘til He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

God of Glory by Kenneth Landon

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In Christ Alone

Absolutely love these lines:

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand

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You reap what you sow!

I love receiving unexpected wisdom and understanding from the Lord – even if it does come at 2:50ish in the morning and I was planning on getting my work day started at 8. Hey. He is God! I’m on His schedule, not the other way around. (2 Peter 3:8).

“Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.” (Galatians 6:7 NKJV) I must have read/heard this verse a thousand times and it wasn’t until now that my understanding of it changed. I’ve always considered it from the perspective of sowing the bad things you reap. For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption… (Galatians 6:8 NKJV). You rob a bank (sow), you get caught and go to jail (reap). You ignore someone in need (sow), no one comes to your rescue when you’re seeking help (reap).

God’s revelation (and most times they come without the fanfare of biblical times. He simply places it in front of you quietly and says “meditate on this.”) came as conviction to how I’ve been treating my prayer life lately. With the best of intentions (no I don’t believe in that road to hell sentiment because I have yet to see it in the bible), I have been making a conscious effort to spend at least an hour a day in prayer. This stems from my church’s bible study series a few months ago about the importance and power of prayer and the practical steps for incorporating it into our daily lives for a much richer walk with Christ to help us mature in our faith. The hour stems from Matthew 26:40 when Jesus, who was preparing for his fate of being crucified in payment for our sins, asked His disciples to pray and keep watch with Him. Each time He came back from his prayer place, He found them sleeping. His question to them was “Could you not watch with Me one hour?”

This same question is the foundation for Dick Eastman’s The Hour That Changes the World: A Practical Plan for Personal Prayer about the significant difference that spending time in prayer one hour a day can make. So, armed with a heart wanting to please God, I charged ahead with my plan to spend time in prayer an hour daily. An incredible change from the maybe one hour per week I used to spend. I share this last bit with you because one of the things I’ve struggled (continue to struggle?) with in my walk with Christ is my prayer life. He’s convicted me of it many times (as He did early this morning) and has worked to correct my ways.  Because I’m human (Matthew 26:41), His correction is sometimes lost to my earthly desires – this has been the case these past few weeks.

I wasn’t praying enough (not good behavior for a God-fearing Christian), He convicted me of it (by showing me that was unacceptable) and corrected my ways (by leading me to this series on prayer). The correction has been corrupted by my human desires lately because I’ve been so focused on getting that hour (literally clocking it by watching the time that I started and calculating the time I have left.) in that I’ve completely lost out on the quality of the prayers (something my pastor warned about in the study). I’ve been of the mindset that I need to get this one hour in so I can check it off my list of things to do for that day. Shameful, I know.

What God has shown me just now is that what I am sowing (this rote, dispassionate approach to my prayer life), I am, unfortunately, reaping (He is hiding from answering all the questions I’ve had about my purpose in His kingdom and how I can best use the talents He’s blessed me with to glorify Him).

Had I been less selfishly focused on meeting my human desires), I would have been less distracted and more focused and open in my prayer s (sow) and would have heard God’s leading a long time ago (reap). How can He take the time to talk to me when I won’t take the time needed to have a quality chat with Him?

Although I’ve been putting in the hour, my time has been of no real quality. There were no deeper connections to be made with God because I was putting in zero effort. I am ashamed to admit that some of my prayers over the past few weeks have been so lackluster and so passionless that I’ve literally fallen asleep in the middle of them. How insulting to Jehovah, who has countless angels praising and glorifying Him daily, to have left His glory to sacrifice His life on my behalf and I can’t even bother to stay awake while talking to Him?!?
Welp. It’s 3:46am now and I conclude by thanking God for this realization that if I spend quality time with Him (sow), I will get a quality portion of His time (reap). Sounds self-explanatory, especially as you consider it in the context of 1 Samuel 2:30, but common sense is not always so common.

Lord, please hear my prayer that I’m grateful to serve THE mighty God and humbled that He should want to spend time with me. All You ask is that we honor You by putting You first (Matthew 6:33) then You will honor us by meeting our needs – starting with our need for a more meaningful relationship with you. Thank You that You love me enough to convict me of behavior not pleasing to You and for taking the time to correct me to do better. I’m sorry for each time that I’ve allowed my flesh instead of Your Spirit to lead. I pray for (me and for anyone reading this post who is struggling with this) a change from a flesh-led life to a Spirit-led life. Help us Lord to seek this every single day as the foundation for a richer and more passionate Godly life. Let our lives, in actions and not just words, glorify You and let us be a living testimony so others will seek You and come to saving grace. I pray all this in the holy name of Your Son Jesus. Amen.

As always, I love reading your thoughts. What are you sowing and reaping on your Christian journey? How has the Lord convicted and corrected you if those things are not pleasing to Him?

2 Peter 3:8 But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. (NKJV)

Matthew 26:40 Then He came to the disciples and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, “What! Could you not watch with Me one hour? (NKJV)

Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (NKJV)

1 Samuel 2:30 … But now the Lord says: ‘Far be it from Me; for those who honor Me I will honor…’ (NKJV)

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. (NKJV)


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All to Jesus I Surrender

I can’t believe I haven’t posted in almost a year. Where does the time go?

Well, it’s on my heart today to share this simple message with whoever happens to come upon this page. When there’s darkness and sadness and you’re in need of something to hold on to, I’ve found nothing better than the creator Himself.

Sometimes we make things so difficult on ourselves by not trusting – at all or fully – God’s complete sovereignty. He’s given us the words in Matthew 11:28 to embrace “Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

We carry burdens that do not need to be our own. We carry with us everything – fear, disappointment, anger, mistrust, hate – both directed at ourselves and others – when God has said we don’t have to. He’s made us the offer to trade our heavy load for His light one. Matthew 11:29-30 say “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

How counterproductive to keep struggling to carry a load that God has selflessly offered to carry for us. Why is it that we’re not trusting Him to live up to His word? What’s keeping us from doing so? Numbers 23:19 is clear that we can trust God to stay true to His promise to us. If He says something, He will hold true to it. “God is not human, that He should lie, not a human being, that He should change his mind. Does He speak and then not act? Does He promise and not fulfill?”

We didn’t have to ask God to take our troubles from us and carry them on His shoulders. This is something He offered. He doesn’t go back on words that He’s spoken.

If tonight you’re still struggling with worries unnecessarily, take some time to yourself and listen to the words of one of my favorite hymns – All to Jesus I Surrender. When you’re done with listening to the song, say this simple prayer to the Lord: Heavenly Father, I am tired of handling things on my own. I’m tired of worrying, being scared, feeling overwhelmed, etc… Lord please give me the strength and the wisdom to surrender all to You. Thank you for offering to take it all from me. God, I accept Your offer and freely surrender all at Your feet. Please God replace everything I’ve surrendered with joy and peace that surpass all understanding. Help me Lord to always trust You and to continue to surrender all. I pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.”

Let God be God. Let Him be the ALMIGHTY. The King of Kings. The Lord of Lords. It’s His job. It’s what He does. Why not surrender all the very one who has control over ALL?

I pray you’re blessed by these words.

I Surrender All

All to Jesus, I surrender;
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.


I surrender all, I surrender all,
All to Thee, my blessèd Savior,
I surrender all.

All to Jesus I surrender;
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
Take me, Jesus, take me now.


All to Jesus, I surrender;
Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
Truly know that Thou art mine.


All to Jesus, I surrender;
Lord, I give myself to Thee;
Fill me with Thy love and power;
Let Thy blessing fall on me.


All to Jesus I surrender;
Now I feel the sacred flame.
O the joy of full salvation!
Glory, glory, to His Name!


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Survey Says!: Henna Journey Part II

Let’s just get straight to the results: THIS HENNA THING IS TOTAL CAT POOP!

I had high (↑) hopes – some realistic, others not so much – that were quickly dashed once the henna was washed out of my hair.

Dashed Hope #1:

The subtle but noticeable red gloss my hair was “supposed” to have was no where to be found. My hair is the same 1b that it’s always been. What’s saddest about this development is that both my husband and I saw the reddish tint in my hair when I first applied the henna. I am disappointed.

Dashed Hope #2:

Samsonesque hair of my dreams is a more distant reality after the henna treatment. One of the first “benefits” that initially drew me to henna was the promise of strengthened hair. How excited I was to decrease shedding and lessen hair loss. You do, of course, understand my utter SHOCK (and absolute DISMAY) at seeing a S-I-G-N-I-F-I-C-A-N-T increase in shedding and hair loss AS SOON as I started washing out the henna. I did indeed cry that river requested by Justin Timberlake. (Side Note: Just noticed his name is ‘-lake’ and he’s requesting a ‘river’. *CRICKETS* Umm…guess I’m the only one who cares about this observation. Okey dokey…moving on.) My hair continued its migration from my head well through the styling process.

Dashed Hope #3:

I was secretly hoping for an instant transformation into a melanin-rich Rapunzel. You can stop shaking your head now. Even I can admit that I sometimes have to throw myself out of and deadbolt the lock to the Land of Make Believe I spend too much time in.

Did I like anything about the results?:

You would expect me to scream NO without thought, but that’s not true. My curls usually shrink after washing, but that was not the case with the henna. I LOVED how it elongated them without erasing the pattern.

I’m nothing if not diplomatic, so I can admit there’s a poss slight possibility that I might have done some things that aided in the aspects that were ineffective.

Possible theories for what went wrong:

1. Unreasonably assumed this was the potion for all my hair needs.Talk about pressure on one little product.

2. I left it on for too long. I hennaed at 6 or 7 pm on Thursday and did not wash it out until almost 1pm on Friday. *Excuse me a minute while I use fingers to do the math* If I didn’t fail kindergarten math, my hair was marinating in the henna for 18 or 19 hours. My assumption was the longer I kept it on, the richer my new color. Assume = Ass + U + Me. Right. Got it.

3. Instead of a deep condition, I did a protein treatment. In my defense, the last time I did this Coconut Milk Protein Treatment it left my hair amazingly soft instead of fantastically strong. I assumed (there’s that word again) I could just add a dash of moisturizing conditioner (Tresemme Naturals with Aloe Vera and Avocado) to the mix to neutralize the effects of the protein in the coconut milk. One of these days I’m going to accept that I am not Madame Curie. Anyway, this might be a case of too much of a good thing (protein).

4. I don’t follow instructions very well. The CurlyNikki tutorial video clearly states “Smoosh the henna through. Try not to manipulate the hair too much.” Of course I took that to mean “Manhandle my hair to make sure each and every single strand is saturated with henna.” I once again made an a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. I figured it would work better if each individual strand was coated. Not the case.😦


I said it in the post before last that what’s good for the goose is not necessarily good for the gander. Henna has been a transformative hair experience for an overwhelming number of women. However, there are those (raising my hand) whose hair remains the same; or, sadly, is made “worse” (raising hand again).

Next Steps:

I am:

a. the bravest woman on this planet

b. an idiot

c. an eternal optimist

d. all of the above

Why the quiz? Because I am actually considering giving henna another try. Please stop sucking your teeth and rolling your eyes. Thanks.

The two reasons I’m considering giving it a try again are:

1. so I can do it without the mistakes from the first application

2. because this process is cumulative. The more you do it, the better the results.

I still have half the box left. I might as well finish it off. The next time around I’ll be more methodical about following the recommended steps. Here’s hoping I don’t end up bald for giving henna another chance. *insert nervous laughter*

I’ll keep you posted when I decide what to do. I’m always interested in hearing your stories. What’s your experience with henna? If you have not tried it, what’s keeping you from buying a seat on the henna bus?

Here are some pics of the immediate wash out results. I was too embarrassed to take pics of all the hair I loss. Pay no attention to the greasy neck.

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Only Thing We Have to Fear Is Fear Itself: Henna Journey Part I

Oooh weeee…I was sweating bullets for weeks before I finally decided to face this scary bully head on. TODAY I HENNAED. And it was a much less intimidating and messy process than I initially imagined.

I used the following CurlyNikki tutorial video as my guide. Be sure to check it out for details. Side Note: I sent a tweet to CN to confirm that it’s okay to henna without first washing the hair. She said it’s fine.

50g Jamila Henna 2009 Summer Crop (I purchased the 100g and used half the box. You have to scroll down almost to the bottom of the page to find it.)
A little over 1 cup of warm green tea (I used 4 bags of tea). I actually prepared 2 cups of tea but didn’t need to use all of it to achieve the mashed potato consistency recommended in the video.
2 tablespoon raw honey that is added after the other ingredients are mixed. Right when you’re ready to add it to your hair. (You can use any honey but I love this stuff)

Once I mixed the tea with the henna I just about passed out from the smell. O.M.Wow! I’m so NOT a fan. From what I’ve read on the blogs, most people usually dislike the smell of the Ayurvedic treatment that I did last week. Not the henna. However, I was fine with the AT. The henna is what is assaulting my nostrils as I type this.

Other than the smell, so far things seem okay. I haven’t noticed the issue that most people worry about —that it eliminates your defined curl pattern. However, I haven’t washed my hair out yet so there’s still the possibility of this happening. We’ll see tomorrow, God willing.

What I did notice (and my husband mentioned it without my even pointing it out) is that my hair seemed highlighted with red as soon as I mixed the henna in. I’m excited to see what shade it ends up.

Here are some pics of my journey. Enjoy.

Have you tried henna? What was your experience? Feel free to post blog links of your journey if you’ve recorded it.

Part II coming soon…

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